Studies vs Duties

There was a time in my life that I encountered this dilemma. And I knew that whatever my decision would be, iy will determine my future.

It was in the year 2005 when I had to choose between my studies and my vow. I was taking up Education -- the 3rd course that I took up when I was in college. It was also my 7th year in college. Since I had shifted course 3 times already and I was overstaying in our school, I had to graduate by year 2006.

I asked for some advices. Some says that I have to choose my duties. Some says I had to choose my studies. I was confused, but I chose to finish my studies. Not because it's more important than my vow, but because I love my vow more than anything else in this world. Again, I chose to finish my studies and left my vow for a while because I love my duties more.

It was hard for my part seeing my batchmates become regular in their duties. I was a candidate for regular by that time and I admit, there were regrets. But I asked God in my prayers to help me finish my course. I told Him the reason why I had to leave my vow. I promised Him that after I finish college, I will return to the ministry and use the knowledge that I learned in college to help my leaders and the ministry.

God granted my prayers. He let me finish my studies. So in return, I have to fulfill my promise to Him. After I passed the board, I returned to the ministry. And it didn't take long, I was given "special" assignments that I never realized that will come to my life.

Of course, not all can have this kind of fate. Not all of us have the same destiny. I strongly believe that vows and duties are more important than anything else. But God has plans for each of us. We may have different roads to walk through, but for me, I think, this is the road that He wants me to take.

I admit, I had lots of shortcomings and wrongdoings, but I obtained mercy from God. Special tasks keep on coming from the time I fulfilled my promise to Him, up to the present.

With all these blessings, I thank God because I really witness how He helps me to keep my promise. All the tasks He is giving me requires my present profession -- the course that I chose to finish. All my dreams which I was very eager to pursue but seemed to be impossible are now coming into reality through our leaders. I just pray to God for His guidance because I admit, I can't do these things alone. But again, no words can express the gratitude that I am feeling right now. All I can say is THANKS BE TO GOD FOR HIS UNSPEAKABLE GIFT.

(Me and my Younger Sister during OUR graduation. FYI, I am 3 years older than her :D )